From baseball to RIP to you moving

You have been so close for so long
We where inseparable
Now three years have come and gone
I've been so lonely
Where it was once just a walk across the street
Its now a flight around the world
There's not a childhood memory that your not in
Christmas, birthdays, Toy runs,
Skipping out on people houses, running away,
Making fun of people, fathers hating us,
Best of all making girls cry, you know the one I'm talking about
I cant think of my childhood with out thinking of you
Missing you, you where my everything
My escape, ya we had are fights
But at the end of the day,
You where the one that was always there
I miss that, I miss the walk across the street
Most of all, I miss you

Boys are men, and men are boys

Like we talked about
Some days he knows me so well
Better then I know myself
But other days he doesnt even see my tears
cryed right infornt of him
On days like that I feel so alone
So cold, should I spell it out for him
Or just leave it and wait for the beautiful moments
Where he knows every look every curve, everythgn there is to know
How can I be so mad at him
So disappointed in him yet
Still if I dont tell him I love him before
befroe we part I dont feel right
How can he know all of me, yet none of me at all

Romance and the man

I've been waiting
Wanting, hoping
For something amazing
Special, romantic
How long do I have to wait
I hear you say "I'm romantic"
When I'm I going to see a flower
A surprise dinner
When do I get something special
Do I have to prove to you I'm worth it?
How long do I have to wait
I'm just a girl what more could I want
I don't want a fairy tale
I just want romance

Tainted angel

To look at the boys today, to be an object
If I'm not yours to treasure, I'm not yours
There are others for me to experience
I've made my mistakes, I've asked for my second chance
I've asked to be pure again, to be hole again
You have answered me, you have sent me an angel
A tainted angel but an angel none the less
I have not been perfect
But I have been as perfect as I can
I could thank you for my second chance but
I thank you for my mistake
with out witch I would not be who I am
Thank you for letting me learn
For letting me grow
Thank you for who I have become
And thank you fro the love in my life

Forever

To think forever is to long, but am I thinking to short
I know I love you, but is it forever or just for now
I am scared of forever, I am scared of tomorrow
To face loving you forever it to unsure forever is to long
To face losing you tomorrow is to hurtful for I still love you
I'm stuck between now and forever
Your in my heart, my soal, my mind, you run in my blood
Your in my heart always and tomorrow and forever
We may not last forever but you have made forever possible
You have fixed my broken heart, you have made me believe
TO be able to beleive again and smile again to be in love
To beleive love could be so true and pure
If our forever ends will we cry, will we be friends will we hurt
Will our love be differnt or non exsistent
From this moment I dont think I could go on with out you
But if hearts change will we still havelove in our friendship
To be forever is to be unrealistic, is to be fake
My smile is for you and is forever
My love is for you and is forever
I may fear forever but forever is worthless
If I'm not with you

With out you

Laying here in bed, listen to songs that remind me of you
With a picture of you kiss what am I to do
Do I sit here and wish you where here or have a blast with out you
I can go a day with out you but not the night its so hard
At night can feel the cold where you once kept warm
With the haunting past behind I still feel broken
With all your hugs and kisses and the love in your arms
I know I'm not longer broken only fractured
I miss looking into your eyes
How those eyes can see right threw me
I need those eyes, I want to spill me heart this moment
I feel hurt, happiness, disloyalty, and true compassion
I feel so untrue, other boys look touch but only you
Only you have my body, my mind, my heart, and my soul

Only one

Laying here, Staring at a picture of us
we look so in love, so happy , so true
Will this last forever, I hope I have given you all I can
You're so far away from me right now
I feel so untrue just looking at other boys
Their strong grip holding me tight
It only makes me miss you more
How I want to be in your arms
See your smile again, look into those blue eyes
To know your the only one for me
To know your arms are the only ones around me
Other men can comfort me, but only you can see my tears
I've given you all I am, I hope its enough
On the day we part know I love you
You have been me only, my gentle love
My best friends my shoulder to cry on
you are my only

Unmistakable second chance

My mistakes make me strong
To survive the tests I'm put threw
And come out on the other side
Stronger, wiser, more aware of the pain other's feel
To have a second chance to work it all out
To still have love when I thought all was lost
To have a truly honest and pure relationship
To not hear your ,voice and your silly little hello
To not feel your arms around me
To not smile at your goofy laugh
To not have that is all to much to bare
You have been my favorite mistake
My most incredible second chance
I thought we would never be again
I thought you would be my beautiful mistake
Never to be learned from

Grandma

To hear the water crashing
The whisper of the grasshoppers wings
To feel the wind in my hair
The rocks beneath me
To see natures creatures crawl about
The stars in the sky
All natures beauty to enjoy
When the summer air cools
The sky turns dark and the stars are bright
I wonder, Are you there?