More or Less

Feeling the weight of the world.
Trapped in this house I call a home
Expecting from myself much more then I can give
Trapped here by my own hand
Waiting to surpass what I am
But not knowing who I am
Fear grips my every move
Every day I wake wishing I wouldn’t
I’m never alone and I’m loved
Yet I feel emptiness inside
You see a woman in me
I see a lost little girl not knowing where to go
I feel the hand of another
His voice tells me it’ll be ok
You’re not the only one

A look ahead

As I look in I see a wife defeated, by pain and suffering.
A husband stands a hollow form of what he once was,
too young to waste away to old to be young.
In his eyes I see the him he believes he is.
My father, the wisest, strongest man I know.
Now weak and crippled.
How I had hopes of him walking me down the aisle.
Now I sit at moms side. She is a shell of who she was with him.

Love in the second way

Would you love me if I was dressed up?
Yes.
Would you love me if I hung on your every word?
Yes.
Would you love me if I loved you?
Yes, but your still not asking the right question.
Whats the right question?
Do I love you everyday, even when you in your sweats and my old t-shirt?
Do you?
I do love you, and I would love you even if you didn't love me!

Love in one way

Would you love me if I wore make up?
Would you love me if I dressed girly?
I love you do you love me?
Would you love me if I was always there for you?
Would you love me if I hung on your every word?
It doesn't matter anymore
Do you love me or not
It doesn't matter I don't love you anymore

Found

I've fallen
I thought I hit rock botton
Unseen in the moment I hit
I had fallen out of love with you
but I had found something
I found joy
I found you

I gave you my all

I gave you my love
I gave you my heart
I gave you my all
You through it all away
Now I look for the someone
The someone I use to be
Only to find
I changed